Amazing reflexes

2011-03-04T04:31:00.000-08:00

he is my boyy.
After all the drama that we've been through, things have finally settled down.
I'm gonna start my itp soon. This boy is gonna go Japan soon, i'm so gonna miss him. Lol aww only 12 days but we've been sticking to each other these few weeks. Kinda getting used to it.
My stupid ITP place is freaking far, although it sounds nice that it is located at Mandai.
29mandai estate. Big company, ulu place. Looks like some haunted factory.
=[ but i guess i should remain positive. Hope i'm able to handle whatever that is assigned to me. Omg simple stuff like printing and photocopying i also can screw up. I rather do some manual work . hahahaha but oh well i'm studying business admin, and posted to some logistics work =\

Hope i die die cannot be late!
Must leave a good impression.
I'm so worried. I'm always late , almost late the whole of my teenage life.
Now that i'm almost stepping to 20s, i should stop these late comings.
I must be more responsible.

Hope i'll get used to the environment quickly. Hope i don't get involved in any politics stuff. Hate working in office cause of politics.

Enddddd w...
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND.
=D
he's treating me really well after all. i'm lucky that he can tolerate my awesome temper. Lol.... he has a good temper. =D
hope we'll last.

2010-12-26T21:43:00.000-08:00

2010 is coming to an end. The beginning of 2010 was a really bad time and towards the end where i actually completed some of my resolutions for the year and some was uncompleted.

A lot of things happened recently.
Tanna & Kalcee are really sweet. =)
* my dream of getting of the bboys and bgirls together is halfway through*
Hehehe. We shall get some interesting pictures up really soon~ =D

Oh I finally bought my polariod camera and films but i don't know why it takes so long and also my contact lenses.
I really don't have time to go down and get the items, that is why i actually purchased them online but the wait is really irritating.
=(
I want my items badly.=(

School is gonna start, i don't know what will happen to my PDWM module cos my attendance has already failed. Pray for a miracle please.
I don't know how my results will be , but i hope at least not too bad please.
The papers was okay, but i think i did not study enough.

I bought some hairclipons cos my hair really cannot afford to dye or anything except for treatment, i'm gonna save my hair. YESYES. im gonna save my hair. I bought some lousy ones which wasted my money and i regretted, i couldn't find anyone to accompany me to get the remaining ones.
Aww. I'm so lazy. Meanwhile i really want my hair to be long and i want my fringe to grow longer. I will not touch my fringe and shall trim it on my own from now. Cos marcus always cut it so short. LOL.

Bunny wanted e day to be on xmas.
I hope if anything happens..
I won't hate xmas for the coming years.
what our future will be?
Uni, ns, all these..
sigh.
But i hope we stay strong.

2010-12-21T07:22:00.000-08:00

The intensive training week was hectic, followed by the consecutive weeks before Waves.
I'm so packed till i can't practice driving with my dad at home.
Sigh, it's like my car is thereeee in my empty carpark.
My bloody gps is it, i don't know why GPS so expensive. It's freaking 800 plus ,almost like my ipad price? -.- It's lifespan probably 1-2 yrs, bad investment.However,for someone like me with super poor direction sense, i needa get one.

I wanna faster drive out, i'm sick of getting out of my house the long walk, or long taxi ride.
My father is so keen on making me learn for i don't know how long ( many months i suppose) to be able to be on the road.
I don't have time to come home to practice. Peeps keep asking whether i drove to sch, sorry i can't, my dad is too worried.
I hope to drive to school when school reopens. I so afraid then i'll get lost in sch and i don't know where to park etc.=x( super noob) Don't wanna scratch other vehicles.

The 3 days spent tgt w u was really happy.
I supposed happiness doesn't last..
After those three days, it seems like everything will resume back to the previous situation.
I agreed with what Kalcee said :'' If the guy doesn't want you to be known to others, he probably treated you as an option''

It's sad being an option.
I've done so much for you.
=( I know you know it too.
But..i guess you just don't love me enough to be known as yours.

Meanwhile i'm single ^^
i don't feel appreciated sometimes.

2010-12-05T01:37:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it is really a bad thing to fall in love with your good friend.
One mistake, will affect the friendship. We took too many steps , i can't see you as good friend anymore.

All girls love fantasies, fairy tale, happy endings.
Though i see nth ahead of us.

You may not be the one to accompany me watch the movies i like, the dramas i like.
You may not be the one to stand how i buy my stuff.
You may not be the one who is always there for me.
You may not place me as your priority.
You may not text me , call me , just cause you don't like it.
You may not take the initiative to find me cause you're so busy.
You may not give me the sense of security i want.

But i still love you so much.

I cried and cried.
Because i can't understand lotsa things.
I tried so hard.
Cause i never felt things were in place , fitted so well .
I wanted to let go.
I only can let things go if i forget you.
Should i?

2010-10-28T09:52:00.001-07:00

I WANT POLAROID FILMS
SOMEONE ACCOMPANY ME GO BUY.
I'M DARN LAZY.

2010-10-09T11:44:00.000-07:00

Hoo. Wei jie's teaching is good~ Hope we'll be a lil more dope as more training comes along, woot! Quite fun , but my biceps are aching lol.
HITS HITS HITS ( GONNA BE STRONGER, currently damn weak)
my gliding is bad too.

Okay BOTY SOUTHEAST ASIA is DOPE!
so inspired by it, sad that its a rare opportunity but im gonna give e workshop a miss becos i don't wanna look like a fool for not catching up inside HAHAHA with all the dope peeps inside.

I LOVE THE BATTLES~
so insipired once again.

I think after exploring the genres for some time, i think imma gonna fixed to breaking and hiphop.
I need to train more more moremore.
imma gonna commit more time and be more devoted to breaking.
GOGO~
hiphop also kinda cuied recently, needa brush up!

I never been to school so often in my life, and training is bringing me back to school, i wonder how i survive when school starts, HAHA.

2010-09-29T13:19:00.001-07:00

Wooohooo.
Suddenly felt like blogging.
OKAY~
WAVES~ sdz.
ok expected i didn't get into bj's item, i felt i was not good or prepared either too. Locking was unexpected but my moves were so unclean and i was like so stressed that day, i forgotten how to enjoy. I felt very disappointed but i started to reflect, maybe i really lack some individuality and character to do locking.
I really like funk styles, i always watched others and wanna cypher too but just lack the guts. I want to enjoy e music, dance.

I think i was lucky to get into popping cos there was limited people i guess, and breaking, thanks zahran for letting me into ur item but i guess again it's just pure luck.

These two days i had fun learning from zahran and chenghao. ^^ super patient.
this chenghao and alex lol, today we kept backspinning all the way.
I felt very motivated when i saw how chenghao kept trying to practise his stuff . If one day i ever get my windmills i'll serious treat him buffet man lol. very patient but i got no strength.
He gave me a one year deadline, i can die alr lo.
I was like, you really need to work for it if you really want it.
I'll work hard.
of cos with my dear jolene!

Today i nv go for hh trg i felt bad but i needa brush up for breaking really badly so yeah i think i need to practise breaking more.

Oh yeah, back about sessioning, i seriously enjoyed with Peihsia, Helmi, Piahwee ,shanice too, i think piahwee will make a very good buddy thou! HAHAHAHA yeah yeah yeah.

Recently managed to talk more to the bboys and felt more ok with them.
yay this should be e way man, more bonding.
One and a half year more in sdz and SP, thanks for making me feel so enriched with all the trainings.

Wow i was entirely late for one hour for recital today, i felt so damn bad .I'm so thankful that i have such great instructors like Ian and Fong for being so understanding always.
They really made me love locking, becos they show how much fun we can have etc. FUNK STYLE ROCK YO~

after talking to justin , kai, kwan loong, and many more .
I felt so enlightened.
I'll continue working towards my passion, and DON'T GIVE UP
=D

like a fail , i'm supposed to sleep and wake up at 8am.
I can't sleep! I'm an owl.
DEAD. reverse the time .
=(
body clock is spoilt.

ok thats all for today.

2010-09-14T13:17:00.000-07:00

so bored
*shake*
LOVE U WINKY BOY~ looks like he is suffocating.OOPS
WINKY
dark eye rings that resulted from all the sleepless nights recently.
Exams are finally over, but i didn't study for the exams this time round.
I really want to go back to student life, wake up early, do tutorials.
I keep saying but i can't commit to what i said.
Motivation, where are you?

I wanna dance , dance, dance.
I want to enjoy dance - feel it.
But i can't seem to get it.

Sometimes , you just wake up and realise the world is drifting away from you, close friends don't seem to be close to you anymore.

2010-08-12T10:37:00.000-07:00

finally pulled jo and wanyi to go bgirl at recognise.
Boy and felix are awesome cos they are so patient~

I think this will be a very long journey, i have to be more determined.
I'm so lazy.
I need to work more~
Gosh..

Holidays are finally here, i finally can take a break and sleep properly as in sufficient hours.

I'm not ready for many things yet.
Ben's gonna hold a battle for p3 peeps next week, ( HIDE) HAHAHA.

im so scared.
why. why . why.

overcome the fear. its the last lesson yet i'm still so...
=\
add oil

2010-07-12T00:47:00.000-07:00

school...
suddenly think it isn't right to move a step forward.
both are my gd friends. =\
why must this happen~

=(

2010-06-15T11:45:00.001-07:00

Alot of things i cannot share. Alot of things i wanna say out but i can't.

i hope to keep those memories as beautiful as they were.

thanks for always being there for me .
thanks for being so careful with small details and attentive.
thanks for making me feel so pampered always.
thanks for trying so hard to find places with me although we are both poor direction sense.
thanks for protecting me when i said i was dissed by some people and u said u wanna battle em( out of joke perhaps) but i felt v happy when u said that.

thanks for being my guinea pig and eat what i cook no matter how good or bad it is.

i'm letting you go becos of ur dreams.
i want to see you happy.
i don't wanna be selfish.

i'm sorry for being too conservative. but thats me.

all the best to you and your career.

2010-06-13T10:33:00.000-07:00

休日の2週間!リラックスできる時間~
私は今日のレッスンと歌を駆動するため行った。私は,私の友人を踊るため探しに行きました.
私は今日の彼を見た.私の心は沈んで.友人や恋人,私の希望私は区別することができます.
毎回私たちが家に一緒に行く...それは同じではありませんもうです.
私は本当に彼にたくさんの愛と思う.
自分が行くように強制的にする必要があります.

私はなぜあなたは彼女ではなく、私と語った理解していない
私たちの間の距離が広くなる.
もはや特別な.. =(

何を期待することはできません.今では私は本当に彼を愛して.すべてが遅すぎる.
それは多くを傷つける.

so what if i care for you.
it hurts when i see u fall.
my presence doesn't make a difference anymore.

2010-06-12T11:38:00.000-07:00

The more i tell myself i'm fine i'm ok i'm alright.
The more i cannot bring myself to it.

Everything is changing.
So what if i'm longer important to him.
So what if his eyes no longer have my presence.
So what if he has someone in mind.

so what.
Busy occupying more and more stuff to myself.
Hoping it works.
Seems like this method is not useful anymore.

I must smile.
No matter how much it hurts.
I heard some stuff from her...
I was so disappointed.
I don't know why u say there was a line btwn us becos of ur status?
If that is so, why in the first place put down ur status? & now, using it agn?
I'm hurt.
But i keep telling myself you're not like that. So many thoughts.
hai.

After khye told me abt some stuff, dance.. hmm. i think i'm losing it alr.
my passion...

tired.

2010-06-01T08:56:00.000-07:00

MST is coming. EXAMS are here.
I just recovered from my longgggg sickness. Got stunned at the MST dates.
NO TIME ALREADY. Dance is not stopping, lessons are still on. MY EXAMS are like this week!!!!!!
last minute studying again.

i gotten weaker and weaker alr.
i really like the way u treat me as in.. i feel v comfortable w u.
so nice.
but apparently.. u're nice to everyone..

It's like so close and i've to let go.
why is it always so easy for others to move on.

am i not worth for u to hold on for?
ah forget abt it.

I REALLY DON'T LIKE FLIRTS.
GUYS JUS CHANGEEEEEE FEELINGS SO FAST.
i'm sure u've someone new in mind.
argh.
vanessa toh. please
don't get too affected.
please.
haiz

2010-05-20T14:03:00.000-07:00

hmm.. all happened so suddenly when i decided to go for the audition.
got into sdz ! =)
its really hard to train for both genres.
this batch of bboys are really good. I'm like a super beginner in breaking ...
Kh class is really super tough, almost like a crash course for gifted as daniel said.
Lotsa bboys look down on me cause my vocabulary in breaking is limited. I don't understand why, since we are all together in it, can't we help one another to improve and share the joy of breaking. Once i chose to break, i cannot stop. sigh..
really require alot alot of training. alot alot of time too..
I feel very stressed. They are just so different from people i met outside.
You outta be humble a little, so what if you're good. Your attitude sucks.
Why girls can't do breaking is it?!Yeah, its challenging.
Cause it requires alot of physical strength. Its super tough. I should have started earlier. sigh
I got no confidence. arghhh

every lesson have to solo for popping too. Goodness..
You can't be called as a dancer if you cannot freestyle. yeah this is something i needa work on.
Darn!

Once again i neglected my studies and also health, i've been coughing for several weeks. Coughing machine now. Cough until i cannot breathe.
Sucks. Took medication and overslept and missed my presentation. Super guilty, no words can mend the time lost and marks lost during presentation. I feel very very bad. I need to shift my attention to study already. I need to balance dance and study.
Peeps, i really wanna meet u all esp e 5 and all e close ones.
Time management is essential i know, but i really don't know how to sort out my time now. everything is stacking up, and i need alot of self-training.

you can ask me to give up anything but not dance.
cos if you love dance, you'll know how it feels but if you don't . You will never understand.

argh.
i stopped singing already. Tommy laoshi is disappointed. I will go back casually when i 've time.
Too much at a go already.

Tomorrow there's camp.
Argh and need to freestyle for waacking .
Missed two lessons already. deadmeat.
okay.. thats all.

2010-04-25T06:59:00.000-07:00

毎日私は学校と踊るじゅぎょうにいきます。忙しい！！！
日本語の勉強をする気があります。
あした学校のクラスは，九時から五時までです。じゅぎょう大変ね！
今日は踊るができないほどつかれた。今日クラスに来た学生は、三人だけです。
私はすでに私のピアノ宿題を終わりました。＾＾
にほのたべものがこいしです。おなかがすいています！
私のお母さんが何かを言う度に心配になる。
私は黙っていればいいの。

今度こそ、頑張りましょう。

2010-04-25T01:48:00.000-07:00

I think my brain is taking in too much recently, it has to slow down.
My memory is getting worser each day.

I'm tired.
Physically ,mentally.
I want to improve my jap ~

Nowadays i don't really wanna share what i'm thinking to you.
I don't know why, i feel upset.
But i'm fine.

I'll be good.
Stop thinking.

I wish pg grp , we all can improve and not disappoint khye.
We'll be better~ though we're working jus for the last performance sake.

i will start blogging some things in jap, pardon me if there are grammar mistakes and incomplete sentences. I'm still a beginner! =D

2010-04-16T14:01:00.001-07:00

voo FRIDAY.
After piano, i cabbed down to SCAPE. Waiting for the rain to stop but it's like never ending!
Argh it's been so long since i got stuck in a jam from Jurong, how i used to dread the route to school whenever i overslept. I HATE THE FREAKING JAM!
Damn expensive, 40 bucks cab ride.
Damn broke for the day, thanks lucas for giving me a ride home, hehe.
Ate at kobayashi and went home for session.
We did some popping, locking and some random stuff.
Really worked my body today, its aching all over.
I think my legs are gonna have bruises already.
Nowadays, so many young ppl are so good in dance.
They are my form of inspiration man, seriously .
If you're determined to do something, you will work hard towards it.
I guess i'm not working hard enough, its time to reflect man.
Gosh, i'm interested in lotsa stuff but i gotta FOCUS.

i miss chatting with yoshi, he is like so busy with work!
muahaha, がんばって！
you still owe me smth u cook! heh, chef yoshi!

vokay, back to dance.
JIAYOU MANZ.
OMGOODNESS.

I WANNA EAT, IM HUNGRY!
but its fattening.
WHY AM I A GIRL,
LOL!

2010-04-07T14:50:00.001-07:00

I used to enjoy walking with you, rather than any form of transport.
I remember how i used to complain after long hours of walking , cause i was wearing heels.
Guess i like walking much more now. Although without you, the journey seems longer.
Many things i thought it was special , just between us.
I guess, i assumed too much.
Now doubts are cleared, i feel happier.
Cause all the while, only i felt things were sweet and special.

I don't know why, maybe i'm paranoid.
I'm thinking alot. As usual~
But, i should not interfere.
What will happen, i can't stop anyway.
I just wanna see you being happy.

As much as i cldn't control clicking ur profile, talking to you, whenever i missed you.
i'm not used to it. But i still have to learn.
Time will heal. I hope. Yet again,
All e best!

Back to my jap books~ enjoyed talking w watashino atarashi tomodachi, yoshi san!

2010-04-02T22:52:00.000-07:00

Had a long chat with tanna.
Was worried about him, and hmm.
I knew more about myself i guess.

I already know i had these flaws, i really learnt alot.
I tried alot already, but that doesn't mean i'll stop trying to be a better person.
I know there alot of things i cannot depend on others already, alot of things i have to do it on my own.
Hmm, but after hearing what he said.
I had slightly a shock, because, i didn't think so much whenever i was with you guys.
Sorry about my moodswings and all. But stonning is something hard to change.

Dramatic rs in the past. Tanna was like entertained.
haha..anyway, tanna stay happy ya.

I'll really learn from it.
I can't guarantee that i can change totally, but i'll try.
=)

2010-03-31T09:48:00.001-07:00

Glad that i have veron, zhuming, adeline, rebecca, jo, you ren ,rae, koonchong, grace
To entertain me these few days.
I really smiled. =)

Woo. I'm like a ok.
Ok ok?
erm. PEEPS, do not fool me on APRIL FOOL!
Had enough of those jokes.
Balancing now.
jiayou beh!

我知道他现在应该很忙，很开心。
我也要开心一点。
为什么这么投入呢？
跟他去过的地方，影响很深刻。
不要想了。

在想就不能回去了。

2010-03-29T08:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes , things happen really very fast in my life.
The sudden change always never fail to shock me.
Time don't measure the quality at times.
Everyone says its fast, yes i know.
Don't worry , everything is normal now.

I miss you, when you find me when i'm lost.
I miss you, when you are full and you still help me finish my food.
I miss you, dancing everywhere with me.
We can walk non stop the whole day.
You laughing at me, when i do smth stupid.
I miss you .
things changed, maybe like you said, it'll hurt more if it dragged on.
I hope that i can restart and be just your friend again.
I'm trying hard to withdraw all my feelings.

Yes this is a prob, when i like someone, i like tt someone alot.
I'll not devote so easily.
It hurts badly.
I wished that i didn't fall for for you.
We were so happy as friends.

It hurts when u misunderstood what i said.
It hurts when you thought i was someone like you said.
We'll continue to pursue our dreams.

i really want to be happy again.

2010-02-13T11:11:00.000-08:00

i miss him, finally talked to him like after so many yrs.
5 yrs alr.
old friend, we gotta meet!
but its like. U.S
uh.
moola moola come to me.
i'll make a trip and visit all the U.S friends man.
JASON LAU, PIUS LAU, AND ERNEST!
=)

he is so perfect, maybe not. but in my eyes. yes.
Thats why, i'll never see a future in us.
As long as he is happy, i'm!

simple is good.
Contented is good.

Happy cny, i spent e whole day today w papa singing and eating. love papa =) you're e greatest!
mummy also, thanks for making e trip down~
Happy valentine to my dearest friends. stay sweet w ur love ones.!

Friends who are visitin my house, pls arrange tgt in a day, easier to plan.
love ya all.
enjoy!
back to work.

2010-01-21T03:17:00.000-08:00

in clubhouse now, just ended e stupid test.
Goodness, realise my theory for kb sucks.
=(
i miss dancing with twineh and O.C ..
my memory is failing me, i can't remember steps. Need more practise!
Guess i can only keep dancing when holidays come. Seriously all the projects are stacking on me.
Hai.
Never ending.
I hate ITAB. =( i need an IT expert
Junfeng is crazy playing all the chinese new year songs, national anthem and the old songs.
Noisy-ed.

School is boring.
Can't wait for weekends.
Whenever weekends come, they mark the start of a Monday.
Anyone wanna go watch floor the love?

I wanna improve in my vocals.
tempo also.
idiot.
LOL

2010-01-13T10:28:00.001-08:00

I had enough of low-profile rs.
I finally found one guy that suit all the criteria. However, something happened. Oh wells. Glad that we are still friends.
Another guy came in, i once ever thought of considering him.
He seems kinda perfect in some ways, yet this is only e beginning.

I have a bad temper.
Not many people can accept it.
I'm trying to curb it.
But i'm jus too sensitive.
I'm tired of it myself too.

I will not step into a rs or try a rs.
Unless. the person can accept me for who i really am.

financial issues. suck big time. Guess people don't know me well.
=)
lazy of explaining.
OMG MY ESSAY HAVEN WRITE LA. OMG

2010-01-07T11:39:00.000-08:00

a meal at thai express.
twinneh and me

cgreen curry . yummy.
im gonna dig out all the beansprouts.
i missed my queue number. and i waited for 45 mins longer.
we got childhood k. lol

en en and her sweet.
look at the awesome cab fare. i hate mondays. sorry mr cheng. i tried to come for lesson, rain and jam = cannot make it.

i'm having gastric. i hate it. 一阵一阵的痛！
i can't find my book for final theory. omg. where r u!

had a new hair cut and hair colour.
=\
i look fatter.

not to mention. i just ate supper.
goodness.

2010-01-04T21:16:00.000-08:00

First day of school. Late for 2 hours.
Didn't dare to sleep cause i scared i will oversleep.
Then i took a cab hoping i could catch some sleep in the cab.
I got owned by the cab fare of $45, 1 hr 15 mins jam! consecutive accidents and etc. Omgoodness.
Mr Cheng is gonna scold me. I really missed lotsa lessons!
Then i went out with enen to eunos to apply PDL.
i missed my number and had to wait for another 45 mins for my turn.
Then i went with her to watch movie ,was waiting for the movie to start so we went to arcade awhile but all the machine that i like to play was spoilt.

and lotsa bad stuff! whatever i wanted on that day, was unavailable, spoilt or whatever.
Nothing is good yesterday.
I'm tired out.
SERIOUSLY.
i need rest.
SERIOUS.
so. these few days don't ask me out k. let me fill in some sleep.

2010-01-03T12:47:00.000-08:00

2010 resolutions.

1) go school often , promised ken kwan and mr cheng.
2) be organised. plan properly.
3) follow timetable
4) don't be late for lessons.
5)meet up with my friends more often
6) reply to text msgs more often, friends are complaining.
7) be able to freestyle and choreograph dance.
8) be good in popping & locking.
9) be able to read beansprouts like ABC.
10) better tempo !
11) be able to strum and sing, poor ken. thanks ken u rock! haha.
12) O.C to dance once a week.
13) learn to cook more dishes.
14) improve in singing
15) be confident ( this is a resolution for many yrs man)
16) not to feel heartbroken by any guy.
17) pass manual driving.
18) communicate in jap fluently.
19) study more, and do tutorials often and go for lectures.
20) to improve on eq, not sensitive as ever. its not like i want ya know. hardta control.

jiayou beh

2009-12-31T12:42:00.000-08:00

As u can see my camera is failing me . haha me and my fruit tarts again!
Wilberts nugget request
my decorators. NANA 's pic is missing. she's also one of the decorators! wooh!
my cute assistant. actually she was in charge in the chocolate puff. but my phone died before i took pics. sad! so is the carbonara and mushroom soup. wooh. followed the recipe exactly and all was a success. happy! happy that wilbert dad say the soup is good. i boiled e chicken bones and the soup for 2 hours. and its not canned soup! muaha. its time to explore and make more dishes for my love ones. but i should wake up punctually. was supposed to finish at 7. but ended at 10. cos my oven breakdown halfway. haha
tart making.
can u believe they cost 180? like. I NEVER expected tt. but oh wells. i enjoy cooking . just that. when there is a time limit . i will go crazy. multi tasking is not my forte man.
giant.
my first buy and followed by some extras.
ok enen made me wear smth her style.haha. i look ugly here. haha
er. ok
eh
COURTS. finding for comfy pillows
jiaqi and hayley!
Jo , Lee fruity tat tat/tat/ tuck/ tu di
cute don't know dog horse or whatever it is.
haha . big eye monkeh!
CUTE DOGGY. i wanted e white one. but i cldn't get it. DARN!

2009-12-23T14:16:00.000-08:00

jo and ah ma
ah ma and i

we like this cap alot! but its for guang. GUANG. we wore it before. so its more ex.
see even my stitch don't wanna listen to my father's nagging
her bear got scolded from macau to hk to sg. Ps jo, my father is stubborn!
jo and i

mogu mogu!!

jo n her wanton mee
pandaaaaaa

jo and her pearl milk tea.
JO!
please indicate. LEMON TEA OR LEMON WATER.
jo and i ~
Having breakfast , century egg with shredded chicken congee and wanton noodles.
ireland potato~ nice
waiting for our lunch

OOPS too hungry, ate the fork too.
eating at some japanese resaturant
i

l

why am i forced to eat these. =(

at some portugese restaurant
xing ma lu
stitchy
me with stitchy.
tat went early to send jo off. 24 hrs sia
me~
jo!
when we reached e airport.

i think i will just upload the pictures in random order. Jo if you happen to see this post , all the pictures will be at facebook okay. I will only upload some here cos its lagging ur computer. My unglam pictures will be up on facebook and not here.

Okay let's start with first day at Macau. We walked down the plane and it was freezing 11 degrees. We took cab to our hotel.Checking in delayed because CASA REAL hotel was fully booked. We waited one hour, so we walked one whole round around the hotel to look for food to fill our stomachs.
The first day was not well spent though, kept waiting and waiting.
After checking in the hotel, we went to Xing ma lu and walked around. So many pretty clothes and shoe shops there. The first day was just for us to check out those shopping places.
Been to hongkong three times, visited different parts of hongkong. This is the first time we went free and easy at hongkong, kinda blur and lost. We didn't check out the popular places. However, the places we went to were good enough!
Second day, my father don't know where to go or visit at macau, so we just took the map and go to museums. Stupid right, oh wells.
I bumped into zhiyi and his friends.
Sucha coincidence. We arranged for a meetup at hongkong instead. However network coverage was rather poor, we only managed to contact each other at the second last day.
After that we went to same shopping mall i forgot the name of it. erps, haha.
We went to this roxy shop and i bought lotsa stuff there cause i guess i like the things there more than in singapore. More variety.
This salesperson is so enthusiastic , we were chatting with him while he was getting us our clothes. He asked us to go shopping with him after his work, but we went on our own ways cause it was rather weird thou. He's rather cute.
I realise macau people don't really speak chinese and english! But macau people are more friendly.
I kinda like macau, although people first impression is always the casino. JO loved macau.
Think the salespeople there are so interesting.
We went to this mastermind shop and bought some stuffs. This salesgirl was fluent in both english and chinese so we managed to communicate smoothly.
She's sooo nice. Okay we bought alot of stuff there until we got a vip card.
We went over the next store opposite,this guy was like very shy. He couldn't speak our language so we had some communication problems. So we said please speak cantonese slowly we will understand most of it. He really said in a very very very slow way. Toot toot one. cute lah! haha
The we went to a shoe shop, i must say the saleperson inside both very good looking.
Very funny also, their chinese standard and our cantonese standard can fight. Equally bad.
Jo is interested in one of them cos he looks very CHIPMUNKIE. LOL.
We were shopping for guang's present so we needed guys of his build to help us check the sizes.
I said: Sorry ah, anyone can help me try out this shirt?
Chipmunk 2: Ho ah! ngo de model shen cai, chuan she me dou hao kan ah!
and lotsa funny details. Shan't elaborate.

Third day we took the ferry to hongkong. We stayed at royal park hotel. Went to shandong jie and nu ren jie ad qin hua zhong xin to shop.
Jo and i spent alot on gifts. I got scolded by my dad from macau to hongkong to singapore.
Next time when i go overseas, im not getting any gifts anymore. My father almost made me deaf! Sorry i really wanted to get gifts for everyone. But can help me think , how hard to bring back from there?

Fourth day went to miao jie i think , jo and i just kept taking cab and shop and shop and shop. haha

fifth day went to ocean park, took the rides that i would never dared to. entrance fee is sg 50 dollars. Damn expensive oh wells. damn fun, i sat the craziest rides. Jo and i was higher than the mountain and we dropped down , our hearts flunk to the bottom. Went to jumbo floating restaurant and ate a super ex meal, most of e food i don't even dare to eat la. oh wells.
Night time we decided not to waste our very last 2 days there.
So we met up with zhiyi.
Took cab to ZHONG HUAN ( central) mrt station.
Then we were waiting for zhiyi for half an hour cause they were at victoria peak.
He came with pearl, zhixiang, he yan, joon ( sorry if i spelt your names wrongly).
We took mrt to tsim sha tsui.
They call it the MTR. haha.
Went to stars avenue and the wind there was DAMN COLD.
the lights of the buildings were freaking pretty!
Joon was busy directing his movie with us as the backup actors.
Then we headed back to our hotel.
The next day we went back to Shandong jie and shop.
We realise their priority is staff and not customers.
their toilet, is all meant for staff.
Shopping malls don't have toilet, interesting or not?!
You need to scan your card( staff) to go toilet.
So people like us have to go all the way down the few streets to macdonalds to go for toilet.
We walked few streets down to find DBS. awesome when they convert the money u have in the bank strgt in HK money. Tts abt it. Alot of other details i left out. this is the summary of it.
I really enjoyed myself at hk, esp w jo! although alot of unhappiness throughout cos of my parents and some small minor stuff.
i enjoyed waking up with you, you helping me pack my stuff,you shopping w me all the way, we trying to figure out how to communicate with them , how we tried to search the places on our own.
Most of the time jo and i was on our own,cos my father was lazy to go out.
So we just kept taking cab and shop and shop.
My father say, you pro uh. So many places for you to shop meh? i replied, HONGKONG LEH.
SHOP EAT SHOP EAT.
i love hongkong.
So going back there again, i needa brush up my cantonese. I want a hk bf. haha
planning next yr for taiwan.
ITS TIME TO GO WITH MY FRIENDS.
i will upload again when im back.

2009-12-14T06:50:00.000-08:00

I know i keep saying things out of anger these few days.
I'm frustrated and making everyone around me frustrated.
I don't like making people angry, i don't like making people giving in to me too.
Yes i 'm juggling with too many things on hand, everything is clashing.
I don't want to trouble gotosan with my japanese class schedule, i don't want to trouble khye so everyone have to give in to me . EVERYTHING CLASHES.
i wanna perform too. But all my chances are gone.
Best of all, my leg is injured. I REALLY wonder how am i gonna dance these few days.
=(

I'm sorry to all who i pissed.
Sorry dear adeline who been trying to help, yet i kept giving up.
thanks.
I'm just tired & i guess i said something wrong again.
Sorry khye.
argh. i really hate how the system works .
sigh.
I miss dancing with everyone.
It seems like i don't belong there anymore.
what to do.
sigh.

packing my bag. getting ready to hk and macau.
those who want gifts. give me money leh. cos my dad nv give me much this time round. =(
shopped too much at singapore.
argh.

i'm missing my friends and my 3 dogs at home.
i want my life back.
vanessa. its time to be organised.
stop using fb and internet too much and wasting ur time.
either u play ur keyboard and guitar or practise dance or study.
understand?!
FUCK. U don't!
okay. i'll do some reflecting.

DARN

2009-12-12T04:43:00.000-08:00

Locking class was interesting and tiring , we danced to Mario song! Haha!
Yesterday had an interesting mahjong session with Wanyi, Guang and Jo.
It feels greats to be cracking jokes and catching up. They are just like a part of my family.
This afternoon went for japanese lesson. JLPT is hard ! I regretted not spending more time on japanese grammar.After lesson, jo and i went to grand copthorne hotel once again with goto san.
Ate alot, so full! We like cooking the okonomiyaki.
oh wells,Just reached lena's place. Mahjong session~ woohoo!
Ended exams already, felt like crap.
Did badly as usual, or perhaps i never felt as bad as before.
Never felt this unprepared for an exam.
Failed SPSS, great, my STATS is gonna fail. Despite trying so hard to maintain my B for stats, SPSS made me flunk STATS. I can only blame myself for not attending ken kwan class. Ken rocks though, sorry ken i'm so gonna be a good girl when school reopens and come for your class. I promised him crossed my pinky alr.

Tried out the audition or AP session. Cui, felt so embarrassed. This confidence thing is taking forever.
Will upload photos soon!
I'm going to guitar class tmr and watch o sch recital.

Yeah, i bought a super cheap polaroid camera, however the quality is bad though. That explains why it is cheap. No wonder people say, the film cost a bomb. indeed. Every picture you have to make sure it is perfect, else u waste ur money!

I'm going to hongkong with jo and my family from this thursday morning 5 am.
Love love my friends.
Miss me abit kk.
=)

2009-11-15T09:49:00.000-08:00

NOBODY NOBODY but you . performance.
a very last min performance.

goodness
projects rolling in like free. Pretty stressed up.
Japanese exam and school exams are on the same week.
Thought i could spare some time to study jap first, but i think prolly not.
WHY SAME WEEK.
NEXT worry on the LIST.

driving exam and school project clash.
then i have to cancel driving exam becos i was said to be selfish.
oh wells.
yeah. true enough i can't expect the whole class to give in to me, but if the cip date cnt proceed as the proposal date. i prolly puke blood. sigh.
please pray things go in sequence.
don't give me surprises.

I miss nana wanyi sherman ~
very long nv hang out and mahjong.
wanna relax also hard.
sigh.

oh yah, ms pk competition, supposingly singing today and get it done and over with.
But i have to fall sick at this very week. FUCK.
sorethroat, flu and cough , package, is making me irritated !

hate days when i can't sing.

i'm lost in econs and pacc.
find my way please.

haiz.
study buddies strongly needed!

2009-10-27T11:01:00.000-07:00

us girls, love teresa. khye don't sad, we love also. abit lesser.
ken rocks. cos, he got tonns of patience.
anyone interested in guitar, please come to music story for trial class =) 4pm.
NANA siew LOVE LOVE HER
JO !!!! hahaha this is what happens when nike has no customers
min and i. lol. ... cool or what. same day say month same year kaki
see the bordeom continues
like the saying, just do it!

steamboat.. with some mic imitate mij.
thanks rae, for planning this steamboat.

my stomach had been upset for days already, pain like shit!

i wanna sing shi luo sha zhou by xu jia ying for next round, should i ?
risky?
ok?
how? tommy!!

hai, i realise i got a packed week, then i realise omg when i have the time to study for econs. NEXT week! why on earth did i fail, and again, i did not study. lol.

i'll work hard for everything again.
BE It.
tempo...
singing
keyboard guitar dance.
come on vanesssssssaaaaa.

stomach PAIN!
goodness

2009-10-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

i shld start saving money for all my wants..........................................

i want a..........
polaroid camera
subcrew bag
necklace
nice dance shoes
nice dance tops
nice dance bottoms
huge stitch toy to hug to bed. saw one at more than words! =(.
i wan lose weight.
i wan mic for my lappy. cos its as good as mute. cnt video call =(
i wan more slp.

faints.

2009-10-18T12:39:00.000-07:00

在看LoveLoveLove好感人的一集 ~

羡慕~
如果是花心的男生搞这一套就太没有意思了，但他好诚恳喔！

现在好晚了，还是睡不着！
明天完蛋了！上课一定打瞌睡！

好想做很多事，但没时间。

最近忽略了我最好的朋友，希望你能谅解我这一阵子有一点忙.

救命！不想上学！好累！

2009-10-12T21:32:00.000-07:00

the girls had some prob with the clothes.
sigh.
sorry for the low energy level.
we will improve and its sad that. our rehearsels were better than this.
=(

2009-10-12T21:19:00.000-07:00

Goodness me. Finally FOUR DAYS ARE OVER.
wooh!
O.C first performance as a crew .
GOODNESS the FIRST TWO DAYS WERE KINDA screwed.
Different days different people screwed up.
first two was the girls. Last two was the guys.
videos captured the very right moment when we.. screwed. LOL.
in case any dance pros come and view and give lotsa comments, i needa clarify first. hahaa.
First performance...
and......
stage fright.
but oh wells.
=x
O.C jiayou.

2009-10-06T12:40:00.000-07:00

LOVE u winky boy. even though other's say u stink and all.
but i dote on u as usual . WINK ROCKS!
wink and i. tired. so we rested at e dance floor
adon't they look like a couple. ohhh. okie. enuff said. haha. caleb's alr attached. =)
caleb. i always bully him. poor thing. hahahaha!
this is our studio now. wee. thou its small but =)
some bread i took in ms. lol. mus be there for like ages.
you ren must be saying, i wanna eat lah. quick take e pic.
koonchong seldom smile. so.. hahaa. i made him smile.
desperate for food!!
i keep calling this dog milo . LOL. when its supposed to be called er. hippo. DOTS. paiseh ar milo. hahahaa
esweet rae and i
guitar pro.
darn. guitar practise at rae's house.
you ren and rae
jo me isaac
isaac jo me. woo. eating icecream at udders.
spot gotosan! isaac jo and i.
look at our finished icecreams. alcohol is too strong. can't stand thou
13 yrs of frenship. we grew up! call us. MR ANGMOH Meets MISS CHEENA. how difficult for us to communicate. haha.
VANESSA'S. TOH meets MAK =)
me and gracey!
MILO BDAY! BUDDEH 19 LIAO... dun play ard alr.
JIAJUN & LING =)
this our new chio nike shoe. silver !!
zhijie with his sore red eye
master cheee looks pissed
another night with twinneh and louis zhijie cheehwee
thats us yaw.
louis cheehwee zhije sandwiching

This cake is as hard as a rock. haha

en face is super funny lor
love her to bits.
siao alr
搞怪姐妹！

ゴトサン　＆ジョサン
ごとさん　＆　ベネササン

this is my BESTIE jo!!!

不知我们变成怎么了，我依然对你有思念。
但我们都知道，这份感情来到一个最终点。
谢谢你一直陪伴着我。

希望我会勇敢的面对明天，
从新做你的朋友。
不管别人怎么想，怎么看我，我还是会在你的身边，陪着你。
但以朋友的身份，关心你。
加油！

I'm tired of being busy already. wooh.
these are all my loveable friends.
met new friends & they totally rock! cmcc peeps. i really enjoy time spent with you all.
sing k sing until siao. ha..

hmm.
i also need to pei my darlings and all.
wait for all of us to meet up after this event.
MISS U ALL SO MUCH.

at least i get to see enen and jo. =)

I like photos cos they capture the very very moment.
and words complement it. Or vice versa.
Sorry for the random photos .
Cos i'm lazy to arrange it and my internet connection is so screwed.
tomorrow i'm going to expo for rehearsel with my o.c peeps.
den gonna work for four consecutive days, sorry if i reply late ya.
impt stuff call me, but i don't reply probably im busy at work.
then after work i have to go for chalet.
omg. freaking tired.
i
failed
econs.
how
great.
-.-
darn.
i'm so gonna improve in dance. yes i 'll. aft... econs exam. WOOHOO
im turning 18 sooon.
bday pls come soon.

2009-09-26T12:18:00.000-07:00

Today was awesome.
Went to Jap class with Jo and chiong our jap homework as always.
Went to Grand Corhotton( i don't know whats the spelling) Hotel dunno what waterfront .
The place is sooo amazing. Pretty pretty.
The dinner was super ex ba, ard 300 plus but it was goto san's treat.
The place was filled with all japanese.. and some americans during the late hours.
the chef, staff were all japanese.
Its a DARE night for me.
I had to eat all the stuff i don't dare to eat..
I know i 'm a loser who don't eat sashimi, okay i ate it today without puking.
7 Ultra thick slices. My father will be complaining i'm so biased , cause i never once ate sashimi with him.Then we ate some jap pizza we have to fry it ourselves.
Today we followed the jap style of eating, interesting, we learnt lotsa vocabulary and japanese culture during the dinner.

Goto san ,　ｱﾘｶﾞﾄｺﾞｻﾞｲﾏｽ!
ｶﾗｼﾞｮｻﾝ & ﾍﾞﾈｻｻﾝ

after that we met up with nana , xh , xh fren, Robert ( LOL) , and watched phobia2.
i wished he was there with me , but he doesn't wanna come along. He never tried to compromise or try things for me. He ever thought of what things make me happy?
i wonder.
I jus want a simple relationship. But i can't feel his love for me.
I'm attached, yet i don't feel like i 've a boyfriend.
maybe the saying is right, i need someone who loves me more than i love him.
i'm confused every now and then.
i don't know why, i doubt ur feelings. Maybe it started out all too haste.
I miss the shy you.
i know im absurd.
21st century, got innocent guys meh?
haha.

phobia is boring. except for the last story. Damn good. good twist. Own , first time a ghost movie can make me super scared and laugh so badly at the same time.
Good one.

alright.
my heart sank deeper each day.
maybe i shldn't fall in love.
music is my best partner.
oh wells.

tts all. i know you might read this one day.
but seriously, i don't think i even matter much to you.
did you forgot, u actually have a gf.
do i ever exist in ur world?

sigh.
nevermind.
u'll realise sooner or later, what u actually want.

2009-09-21T11:21:00.000-07:00

WOO. finally with zhiwei. MIA so long sia.

LOOK AT MY PATHETIC floor. NEXT WEEK. MY NEW PARQUET FLOORRR. plsss come soon.

we cant take a decent pic. always someone behind us!

MASTER CHEE AND I

AHHHHHH

full dress rehearsel..

hee

SEE NO EVIL( MASTER CHEE), SPEAK NO EVIL( ZHIJIE), HEAR NO EVIL (LOUIS )

2009-08-28T14:29:00.000-07:00

this post is for one person, and that person is xuan.
Xuan,
I don't know what can i do to make up all these time you have waited for me for each lesson.
Apologies & sorries seems redundant but i'm helpless but to apologise.

If i would to compare ur schedule and my schedule, ur schedule is much more busier than mine, yet you sacrificed all your time, just to make sure i get my doubts cleared and always simplify things for me so i could understand better.

yet countless times , repeatedly, i cancelled lessons and being late.
I know whatever valid reasons i give will be excuses, cause. I failed to plan properly.

I'm really sorry for everything that you missed out on, important plans u had , u missed cos of me.
im sorry being irresponsible.
I think i have to learn how to plan my time properly, I don't want to waste your time anymore.
When i cancelled the lesson that day, i had to rush between accounts lesson and to fetch my grandma. If in between i have to go for lesson at ur house i can't rush in time back.
I'm very very sorry.
I don't like last min changes too, i know how u felt at that very moment.
I'm really very guilty.

after all these .. i know your impression of me have been very bad.

i really dont deserve your time , effort .
I didn't help myself in this time exam, i really did badly. But i deserved the worst result.
i need to account for my own mistake.
I'm sorry.
i never felt as guilty as now before.

thanks again for everything.

2009-08-14T22:51:00.000-07:00

I would like to thank everyone to stop giving me problems for this 3 weeks. I'm gonna have my exams. Be more considerate. Thanks.

Thanks for ur fucking blog post my dear close friend.
Thanks for being fucking FAKE all this while.
Thanks for acting NICE To me.
I DON'T NEED IT.
I DON'T NEED PEOPLE WHO ARE APPARENTLY BEHAVE THAT THEY ARE NICE TO ME WHEN THEY DON'T WISH TO.
NO ONE IS FORCING YOU.

WHEN ALL UR PROBLEMS, BE IT LOVE OR FRIENDSHIP.
U GUYS TURNED TO ME AND SHARE UR PROBLEMS.
thanks for sharing ur problems
BUT do take NOTE.
im a third person, who doesn't know whatever hell is going on, but taking account of everything u have said.
HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE TO BE ACCUSED ,MY DEAR FRIEND. BECAUSE OF YOU, I BEEN ACCUSED BY SO MANY OF YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS.

HUMANS HAVE A TENDENCY TO BLAME PEOPLE.
YES. WHY DON'T REFLECT WHAT YOU DO AND WHAT YOU SAY IS IRONY!
DONT CONTRADICT URSELF.
U BOTH ARE MY CLOSE FRIENDS.
BEFORE THE THINGS GET TO COMPLICATED.
I THINK THE PRICE OF HAVING U AS MY FRIEND IS TOO HIGH.
im TOO TIRED OF COLLECTING THIS SHIT.

U BEING TOO NICE.
nice..
yes. you're nice compared to other guys.
BUT.
u're lowering ur pride and dignity in doing all the things u're not supposed to.
thats why u're considered TOO nice.
u dun like something SAY IT!
dun want something SAY IT!
HIDE IS ALL U CAN DO.
and BLAME others IS THE BEST U CAN DO!

HATE ME FOR WHATEVER YOU WANT.
I ALSO THINK IM FUCKING NICE.
FOR HELPING PEOPLE, AND IN THE END GETTING THE BLAME FOR THEIR SHITS.

HAVE FUN ON UR JOURNEY BACK TO UR OLD HOME.

THIS LINE BETWEEN US. IS WHAT I SEE BETWEEN U AND ME.
TRUE FRIENDS! NOT!!!!!!!
U'RE NOT TRUE TO ME.
THANKS. U'RE E LAST PERSON I EXPECTED. TO TREAT ME LIKE THIS.
WOOO.
THANKS FOR BEING SO NICE TO ME . BEING FORCED TO TREAT ME SO NICE.
THANKS FOR ENDURING MY FUCKING TEMPER.

IF UR FRIENDS ARE TO COME MY BLOG AND LECTURE ME. TELL THEM DON'T NEED TO.
COS THEY DON'T KNOW THE SITUATION!

2009-07-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

me twinneh adelineek veronehneh

me n twinneh

Finally met up with nana gh, xh ,melvin

and his friends.

went sakae and eat ~ happy~ wooh.. long time since we last sat down tgt and ate sakae.

Next outing.. kbox!

Haiz. everyone now is packed with their own commitments. including myself, its so hard to meet.

gh said it take 300000 yrs to meet me. lol.. damn kua zhang.

been hanging out w twinneh quite often cos we live so near to each other. We are v v similar tts y we click ba. the way we order stuff also damn scary. ahhaah. but its good ~~ no restriction i can order whatever i like~~ hohoho helped her w fnn stuff.. but i overslept the next day and missed mob lesson. i missed lotsa lessons recently. Damn guilty. nono.

uh. lotsa things coming up...

sing out guitar performance. damn. i can't even play e guitar well la.

you ren you ren you ren. help me. my buddy mia liao.. hard to find time practise w buddy too. buddy during hols im finding u ! quack zi han yes im calling u!

bought my new phone alr. haha. i'll update my blog more often now.

i haven do stats. goodness.

okay. i try to do now. wooo

2009-07-14T00:39:00.001-07:00

since boyfriend said i'm not updating.
I shall update abit. But my blog is kinda dead.
Sigh.
Alright. School.. Results for my MST

ECONS. lol. disappointing got a C. superrr careless laaa. think it is the easiest econs paper i ever seen. yet i flunk in it.
MOB. i need another 0.8 marks to get an A. DAMN SAD. mob got B+.
Accounts. disappointing got a B. people who never took accounts got A. and almost full marks. i learnt accounting before yet i didn't get an A. but i didnt study this time. so i need to buck up next MST. JIAYOU VAN. LOL!
now wating for STATS, ITABS.
ITABS IS A SURE FAIL !
SAD.
35%!!!! DIE LE LA.

Dance. Had fun dancing with new grp of ppl~ original criminals.
had fun with ms peeps too.
i needa improve in dance badly. & so is guitar.
singout performance. die le lo.
i need practise!no time no time.
sigh.

keyboard is slightly progressing. vocals are still e same.

SCHOOL is loaded w homework.

okay i needa do an essay for EC now. sians.

i miss NANAWANYISHERMANGUANGHAO! LONG TIME SINCE I SEE U ALL!
Takecare & we'll all meet someday ya
!
LOVES

2009-06-27T13:52:00.000-07:00

This 3 week holiday...
i worked, played mj, went for keyboard, guitar, vocal lessons. Everything except for study. I only studied for a day. I'm bound to fail my exams.
Godly. I used to get so uptight when it comes to exams, and mug the whole way. What have i become to, i just kept slacking. btw i studied two days w andrew. But yea we kept chatting instead.
and got addicted to this drama- we got married ( korean).. theres this guy who acted in boys over flowers, whom many girls will go gaga over.
But i forget his name. Lol.

Actually that movie was kind of torturing. Two parties get to meet and experience life when u're married. Yet u get separated and have a clean break after the show.
However one couple really fell in love, female party cried cause she knew she could not fall in love with the guy. Damn sad.

I'm so carried away by this movie!
its a 2008 movie, not really movie but just short films etc? Lol.

Thanks to enen! hahaha!
En.. U left ur almond jelly at my house la!-.-

2009-06-13T11:38:00.000-07:00

When i have curls, i want straight hair.
When i have straight hair i want curls.

ARGH!
i'm gonna change back to straight hair.
but MY HAIR LOL-ED ONE SIDE SHORT ONE SIDE LONG.
I CUT THE WHOLE BUNCH OF IT.
PEKCEK~
SUPER SHORT NOW
I MISS MY HAIR. SOBS!

2009-06-12T10:09:00.001-07:00

i wanna prove to others , i'm independent too~
haha..

only started work for two days plus plus~
jus kept folding clothes ,serve customer, fold again again and again. ahahaha
but luckily. I 've IRON hands.
they ain't tired.
but my back is
LOL.

sudden urge , i wanna improve on everything , i don't wanna be stuck halfway,
singing,dance keyboard and everything..oh yah studies too. almost forgot
shitified. i haven't study. omfg.

i think i need one who is mature enuff, able to think for me and for himself,
and can make wise decisions.
i realise.. same age or younger really cmi.
lol. thats y i nv considered em. unless there is a different case.
but i doubt.
HAHA.

im tired. finally.
haha. i dun like to be unoccupied..
cos im used to it~ soo.
yea...JOOO
i wan more things to do during work...

2009-06-09T14:02:00.000-07:00

went ms today ~ sang 我不是你想象那么勇梁文音
yay. tommy finally went to find e song for me.
i totally love her! liang wenyin rocks!
hahaha.

went for lesson ..
and went back to Ms for trial class..
quite cool~ fun!

e coolest thing is. Many familiar faces. YAY!

dance ppl or studiowu or o sch.
shit~

dilemma.

yesss im still gonna continue dancing dancing dancing.
argh!

2009-06-08T10:18:00.000-07:00

oh wells.
disappointed.
expected anw .
i just wish i had slight confidence for a least that few mins.
but. i can't.

i lost to fear, confidence and everything.
these few days was busy w ms, and lessons outside and so on so on.
never practise.
just dragged my lazy and exhausted body to sch.
worrying..
result is out.
soo.
yea.
i didn't get it.

its sad when u don't get recognised. come to think of it , i've been learning dance for quite some time alr.
but.-.-
yea.

i always screw auditions!

no point being sad here too. jus wana rant abit. at e same time, congrats peeps who made it~

STUPID THING OF E DAY.
I FELL DOWN E STAIRS!
I GOT BRUISES ALL OVER. AND IT HURTS LIKEEE SHIT!!!

PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-06T11:33:00.001-07:00

Wah. Deprived of sleep man.
I'm so tired.
Gah!
One whole tiring week!

Sigh, no time to practise dance, don't think i 'll get in also. Since its random~
HAPPY BDAY ESTHER! SORRY !! i ended kinda late today!
sorry guys, sorry to keep u guys waiting, i'll meet all of u again real soon..
I wanna join u guys for chalet.. But i have to work for a week~ and e days clash..
Anw, u guys rock! we shall go sing k soon~

now project, work, lessons outside , time for friends, clash!
And supposingly three study weeks.. now become 2 or lesser.
NOnonono. HOW.. DYING.

i wanna study....................................studystudystudy.
then i got things to doo also.
noo!!

uh dunno y i started hating sch.
haha.
yea. this is e real world
and my character jus can't fit in , yea i'll learn.
But bear this in mind, there are always slower ones, weaker ones.
But if they r hardworking, they'll outshine one day.
One day if u really need help, the person who u neglected in e past, will ignore u either.
no one is gonna help you.

i gonna learn to try everything on my own.
I gonna learn to keep quiet.
I'm so not gonna explain, cos its wasting my time.
and.
i'm gonna be alone , cause i want to . =)

and. i saw e selfish side of ppl
felt utterly upset.

but then again.
good friends.
one or two will do.
u need not please everyone~

If i'm not close to u , then y u appear to be close to me?
irony.

i don't like it.
if not close then dun be close.
-.-

2009-05-31T10:59:00.000-07:00

still em, still bonded. yea we're 6e peeps..

me n reon

brain damage

reon and his bday cake

i look so fugly here. me bingshun and tommy

yeah`

i forgot whats this alr. but e others say its spicy. lol. tobasco in it. can u imagine -.-

their shots~ haa.. I ESCAPED from drinking for e day. lol..

magarita w lime. =\

Reon's birthday ~

haiz.. enen nv come, next time i will try to make it earlier so u join us k! =D

Kar yin and liyun , tis plan kinda last min, we'll organise again k!

Esther also~ bday coming, can see u . WAHAHA

damn. everyone's 18.. mine is still so damn long. ahahahaha

2009-05-31T09:41:00.000-07:00

Humans change feelings fast yea. maybe i'm a little affected by it.
BUT that goes to tell me, yea i made a right decision.

I went for dance camp &was totally exhausted. But i left halfway cause i have to go for jap class.
i like motomoto more. hahaa e grp kinda not bonded ..
but i had a gd partner too. his name is IZ! hahaha.

quite cool la.. but i never go for e pajamas dance showcase, sorry grpmates... hope u guys had fun! BED BUGS. buggybuggy!

then on sun i went for Reon's bday~
met up with e pri sch ppl, u guys rock man.
went to a cool bar , v american style-like..
sorry guys i can't drink =( im abit sick alr, if i drink i dun think i can go sch e next day.
But a nice place to chill.. e food serving was... HUGE.....
lol.. yea americans eat alot.. alot cacausians there too.

yea more meet upss.. next on,, esther's bday!
wooooo~
shall be seeing u guys tmr again. yay..

sian. mob lecture..
can i not go.. but.. yea.. that lecturer is super zhun .whoever name he calls damn zhun.

2009-05-27T23:25:00.000-07:00

I woke up today with a superrrr f headache.
Did not go to sch today.
Super guilty.
GUILTY daoo!
econsss.. how can i miss econs..
=(

after resting for quite some time..i still feel kinda dizzy and kinda moody.
Xuan introduced me to watch some videos..
BRITAIN'S GOT TALENT. NICE NICE NICE.
i likeeeeeee ~~~~~e dance videoss. Sooo cool!
and the kid aiden davis, waa..

aiye. how to dance like em =(
hardwork or its jus talent.
lol.
i've neither! LOL

muaha.
i wanna learn more popping. CHARLES. WHERE R U , HAHAHAHA.

DARLINGS & Friends~
i got camp from FRIDAY TO SUNDAY~
so i 'll be free only from monday ..
meet u all next week ~~~
Misses & loves everyone!

i didn't mention..i don''t like camps thou. but bobian.
=(

2009-05-27T08:36:00.000-07:00

I so wanna post our Ideas outing pics.
But have to wait for the PBL to end to post..
Hope this project will be succesful too.
Stress man! =(
spent e whole afternoon discussing e project.. still not very clear what to do. cause
the place story is soooo -.-
this grp is a super funny bunch
We have male boss KOONCHONG and female boss Rae.
grapes and banana joachim
Ivan e smart one and me the ordinary one. lol.
hope more fun times during project =)

JKRIV. sounds familiar..... I have another grp name CalleD ..
sorry JKAVX .. paintball hmm..
i think i'll die in the game at first few secs alr. LOL.
althou i'm in air rifle for five yrs, but i nv learn to dodge.
I miss laughing with u all and crapping w u all.
Shall think of when to meet up w u all ~

I'M SUPERRR STRESSEDD..
I wan a study buddy.
i wan i wan.
who wanna pei me study.
=(

2009-05-26T10:58:00.000-07:00

i love em~ and moto moto of cos, but many mia alr. LOl.

sorry guys for coming late..

wish i cld join u all for e k session.

boo.

I LOVE JAZREEL HONG, MEANSHAN, NASRI,JIALE,HUITING, TIFFANY~

WOOO~

sorry for nt gg sc always haha..

moto peeps, if u guys r gg , update me yea.

IDEAS, IDEAS, IDEAS PROJECT.

damn. creativity, creativity.

brain juice limited.

homework homework home work.

I still don't understand stats.

wonder how i do MST.

i Hate stats. saddisticssss lol!

2009-05-25T08:06:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOO..
MOB PROJECT OVER!!!! YEA we done it ~~ though i was still v nervous and all.. enjoyed doing project with RAE,YENSUANG,YOU REN & KENOGI. GOOD JOB GUYS~~
Our video finally after sooo many takes, was gd... OUR NG scenes! SUPER FUNNY~!
hope mrs loh and DBA 11 had a good laugh.
here comes MST aft hols.
The chim until cnt chim paper. Sigh!!

NOW IDEAS project, EC project. Need to finish IDEAS by this week, and i have camp this week.. sigh!! i dun like camps thou. hahaha .
Aiye, i thought my quiz on facebook was relatively easy. But to think of it, i changed some of my LIKES alr... Dear Friendsss. Look carefully at the qns..
Aiyo no one knows which day am i free? Only those not tt close ones got it right. darn..
Clue , all days i'm not free. But, compared to each day, which day am i slightly more free? hahahaha.

I'M worried for all e coming tests.
Esp, econs, stats and MOB. struggling.
Any kind souls wanna help me.. DBA 11 ppl, hint hint * hahaa

i'm starting to hearts my classmates alr .. hahaha.
=)

i'm tired.
tired.
and..
i still hav to do
MOB..
TUTORIAL. =( and POA online tutorialsss...=\, stats and EC, proj. =(

2009-05-23T07:43:00.000-07:00

Enlightened..
Sorted my thoughts out.
i once think we suited each other, thought everything fits in place.
All our interests were almost similar.
Till all the quarreling came in, we started knowing each other better. yea we don't suit at all.
Even as friends, i think we find it rather hard to talk. Cause, don't know why , we don't click at all.

But , i don't feel anything anymore. I don't feel hurt no more.
I know what i want, and whats happening is definetly not smth i want from someone i like.
So i alr moved on, HAPPY happy!
thanks to all those who hurt me before, i'm soo immune to the hurt alr.
it doesn't take me that long to heal.

to a long time friend,why walk super damn fast when u see me? why so nervous ? haha
And. i wanted to say hi to you,
and after this incident, i know how much am i worth in ur eyes.
when u know someone for one month only, and okay maybe we're not that close.
Thats why u don't care about my feelings.
IF only u SAID THE TRUTH TO ME.
we still can be friends.
u lied to me.
but anw. being ur friend, i shld say, stop getting upset alr. Find someone who loves u , else its tormenting.

anyway i don't like him anymore.
Don't need to be upset.

ur every post, only mentioned how much u missed him.
how about ur friend here?
am i once ur friend at all?!

FROM TODAY ONWARDS, I PROMISE MYSELF TO FUCK CARE ALL THE BULLSHIT.
i feel so fucking childish to get involved.
LOL.

time to get away from all this stuff.
WASTE MY TIME!

2009-05-20T11:14:00.000-07:00

tiring tiring day.
aft sch went for lesson ..
then meet YOU REN YEN SUANG RAE KENOGI at Sunplaza for mob project.
lol.. we discuss superrr long...
and.. 90% of e time was laughter laughter and laughter.We jus couldn't get serious.
Deadlines are near. Sigh. MOB and IDEAS. Two proj on hand, super worried for MOB, presentation is graded this time.. =(

i super need HELP FOR STATISTICS... rae and i call it saddistics. Hahaha.
ITABS test on Friday. Most likely gonna fail, and i've yet to do my jap homework.

Vanessa needs to discipline herself.
TIME MANAGEMENT. OMG.
=(

vanessa needs to practise her dance, her keyboard.
vanessa need to practise her vocals, more strength pls..stupid diapghram.

vanessa needs to memorise e basic jap hierachy characters..

i need to study. SADDISTICS is killing me. i never liked stats! but our tutor is nice.. oh wells.
i will tryta study !
POA is ok..

MOB is crappy, SO MUCH HOMEWORK as always.

I wanna thank my project group members. be it MOB or IDEAS.
thanks thanks. Love love!
Everyone compromised!
We need not be e best, but we'll give our best. Won't we.
Hope it will be succesful!

my special 5
我爱你们

娜娜，就哦，光浩，是恶门，碗碗
咯了咯

i bet no one understands what i'm saying.

(nana,jo,guanghao,she-r-man, wanwan) LOL

2009-05-18T11:07:00.000-07:00

我想唱这首歌
梁文音-可以不爱了

her songs.. her feel. my god. hard to express...

was talking to a no . of ppl online.
first time heard wilson singing and his beatboxing is really gd.
Jiayou wor! and he sang shuo hao de xin fu ne. nice nice! hahaha
next time we duet k. Er lol.. hope i don't screw up! LOL

gman. take care. dun get eaten by wildboar. see u when u're back. loves!

wanyi nana.. i gonna be rather busy this two weeks. we'll arrange for a meetup k. sorry darlings.lovelove.

jo-dear i think i'm seeing u most often cos of lessons. hahaa .. see u!

zh- buddy. i owe u zillion of guitar practises.. my holidaycoming. hahaha can go find u alr! =D

2009-05-16T00:14:00.001-07:00

woooo~ love my keyboard. hahaha
i'm kinda not progressing but.. gambette! WOOO!
gonna go for jap lesson now~

smile smile smile.
mus maintan EQ haha

2009-05-15T13:01:00.000-07:00

Woo~ What a tiring day!
started sch at 8am-5pm.
intervals of 2 hour breaks.. 4 hours in total.
Was playing badminton with youren, eliot, ivan,koonchong.Vivian,kenogi, siying was enthusiatic in table tennis..
walked up and down up and down. Damn.. why business building mus be on a hill!
Today lessons are really damn boring. ITABS. is driving me crazy.
PACC teacher keep repeating chapter one all e way,progress is slow and no one understand what he is teaching!
Luckily ,i learnt poa in sec sch, else i will be flunking this module. Talking about POA, i miss MR vale. I realise u made POA much more easier! sigh. Shall go back to Ai and visit him one of e days.. any 5n1 people wanna follow me?!

After school, went for dance.
Today choreo was damn hard... Kinda challenging tho.
Goodness.......... Ryann.......... he's a gd tcher haha. but he choreos crazy stuff. lol..
After dance went to meet Nana Wanyi Guanghao, supposingly sherman ( but he went to somewhere else to mj )
Played mahjong for 2 rounds. Freaking tired. Its hell 5 am now.
First time i won so much, i guess im really lucky today.

jap class gonna start tmr. YOUREN woo~!
Long day tmr.
I'm tired................................
No matter how tight my schedule is..
I'll still reserve time for all My darlings~ Buddy ~ and so on ..
=)
No matter how upset i am, when i'm with you all , i'll always be happy.
the ones who really cares, loves and dotes me most.

2009-05-14T09:31:00.000-07:00

whenever i'm upset,
thanks for staying w me.
thanks for being there.

u grew up w me.
we been thru so much.
we quarrelled always.. but..
u're still so sweet!
no matter how i'm upset i am.
thank god i have friends like you.
not forgetting many more.

ENEN i love you!
lets go many more countries tgt.
hehe.
taiwan is LOVE!
next stop where?!
meeting u on TUES. yay!

ENENENENENENENEN

lets shopp. hahaha damn long nv shopp..

lets siao tgt.

bring u eat ur favourite cake..

shld be v happy ba ? ahhaa

2009-05-14T07:09:00.000-07:00

omg.
I'm f pissed.
I'm f disappointed either.

I saw this coming.
& i was darn right abt it.

i hate flirts.
esp. when ppl ard me does tt.
i hate it.

FRIENDS?
DEFINITION PLEASE.
I'M SUPER HELL DISAPPOINTED.

PEOPLE ARE JUS SO SCARY. they smile to you, at your bloody back, EVERYTHING CHANGE.

I'M LAUGHING AT MYSELF.
I SHOULD OPEN MY EYES N CHOOSE MY FRENS PROPERLY.

ALL I WANNA SAY NOW IS
wtf.

As a friend, if u care abt my feelings too. Yea..
maybe.. i won't feel this way.
BUT. u alr know everything tt is going on and yet..
thanks for hurting me indirectly.

AT THE END OF THE DAY.
i felt deceived.
it hurts.
i will never hurt my friend. in anyway.

U'll never know.

2009-05-13T15:31:00.000-07:00

我爱梁文音 . was watching her live performance at lunar on youtube.
i love all her songs in her album. I love her voice ~ her expressions thru e song.

i love this song ! and many more. just now i feel tt this song suits e feel most~ =)

she's my insipration now ~ =)

神木与瞳-草戒指
再说在额头原来泪也会痛
倒流心中怎黱麻醉也没用
深呼吸一分钟爱突然的词穷
你狠狠甩开我沉默的手彷佛就剧终

草戒指在手中像句点的沉默
明天以后爱变成了问候

爱不爱都痛我以为我懂
最后你要自由
忘了温柔要套在手中
到最后该不该回头
如果我开口爱继续往前走
幸福听著分开的藉口

再说在额头原来泪也会痛
倒流心中怎黱麻醉也没用
深呼吸一分钟爱突然的词穷
你狠狠甩开我沉默的手彷佛就剧终

2009-05-13T03:18:00.001-07:00

爱到怕了哭到累了最后还是一个人
再也抱不到再也感觉不到你的温柔
你的笑容不再陪伴着
我知到我任性我爱哭爱闹到你受不了
错的是我但也无法挽回
所以放手了让你自由了
不再是你的负担
希望你的生活没有我比较快乐
来不及说我爱你
对不起我的爱拖累了你
不想让你难过生气委屈所以不保持联络
将来日子没有你我会学者勇敢
努力忘记你

2009-05-07T21:44:00.000-07:00

bored ppl do boring stuff. Just like this.

2009-05-07T09:30:00.000-07:00

zettai kareshi!
A robot designed to love only one girl. so sweet!
robots have no emotions tho. but..He's different!
was watching this drama in class.

Friday. I HATE FRIDAYS .
end sch at 5. dance at 7.
tiring. gg meet frens at 8 onwards..

woo.
tired.

2009-05-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

winky winky. 14 yrs old alr.
poor dog.. everytime i cry he'll be my '' furry tissue paper''.

my cute doggy , i know violent n pervert doggy too ( to all the victims of my dog, SORRY ! he has no mating partner for all his life.. maybe depression la. )

I FEEL SO DAMN TIRED EACH DAY.
so many things to do.
places to rush to.
i hate travelling to many places in a day.

i wanna take a break..
i miss dancing. rather stiff alr.. shitt.....

2009-05-06T11:44:00.001-07:00

Vanessa is sad.
jealous.
sad.
sad.
and sad.

thanks buddy~ thanks for being there always . 24 hrs. =)

2009-05-01T13:10:00.000-07:00

jo and i

more pics when jo upload..

waraku~

2009-04-30T21:40:00.001-07:00

I used to waste my tears on jerks... Thought maybe this one will be different..
thought i can slowly develop trust & believe everything again.
i hate empty promises.
i cried for e whole morning.
Thought maybe this one will not make me cry.
Thinking that i may be happy afterall.
Been thinking alot. Think.
In the end... same..
What did i do to deserve all these outcomes..

It hurts.
when can i trust someone again!

i can't differentiate things.
I can't decide anything.

what i want? WHAT i don't want.
i'm going crazy again!

i wan go sun tann!
i wan jus get burnt and die. HAHA. tts impossible.
i know.

i shld be responsible for my words n stop being indecisive..
i'm feeling weak again.

i hate excuses..lies.. even it sounds convincing.
no longer works...

I shld stop gettin xin ruan alr. TO believe. TO fooolishly think !
someone who really loves me, will wait and believe in me and make things work.
someone who really loves me, will try to understand me and not misunderstand what i say.
someone who really loves me, will make effort to spend time w me though our schedules may not tally.
Someone who really loves me , won't hurt me just like how others did.
someone who really loves me, won't let his confidence and my happiness to be an excuse to drift us apart and work w me to achieve our happiness.

all e above..
none of them actually worked. And it always happens in e wrong way, and i repeat Always..
so.
=)

mature guys , young guys. whatever.
All e same. Just different degree of sweet talks to mask their way thru.
I know i 'll never have someone to love me fully cos i don't trust in anyone.
Becos. i seen thru all ! Time is e best evidence.

2009-04-30T10:15:00.000-07:00

Uh. went out w JO...ate at waraku..
Superr full!

List of what we ate:
1 cha soba
1 zaru soba
3 salmon sashimi
8 california maki
1 mapo udon
4 cake sticks ( tiramisu, chocolate, cheesecake & mango cheesecake)
6 meatballs.

wow..
hahaha..
i think i'm crazy alr. i've been eating alot recently.
I wanna go suntann!
ANYONE?!
i wanna go running some time soon.. jo go run go run.

Now and then i miss you.
But ever since i made that decision.
Everything changed. We drifted.
We couldn't communicate.
I may be thinking alot again.
i think u like someone else alr.
=)
i wish u luck!
Yao kai xin oh!

AM i cursed or smth.
either e one i like or the one who likes me.
Will always end up in this way.
I don't know why.
Once bitten twice shy.
I don't think i trust anyone - love.
sigh.

why ami thinking so much again.
oh wells..

my heart sank a lil.
when u don't hope, u don't get disappointed.

i don't wanna hope.
Cause i fear.
i feel insecure.
I'm back to square one.
I need to bring myself back on track again..
Negativity.

2009-04-29T10:41:00.000-07:00

why am i sad?
I don't know.
Sigh.

sorry girls for being emo in class or outside class sometimes. hahaha

i just don't like my life now.

2009-04-24T12:59:00.000-07:00

I lost my phone once again!
i know.. AGAIN!!
OMFG..
ITS LIKE DUNNO E HOW MANY TIMES ALREADY.
I WAS HOLDING ON TO SUPER MANY THINGS AND BUSY TRAVELLING THE WHOLE DAY!
GOODNESS.
BAD DAY BAD DAY!

SUPER SAD.
ALL MY PASSWORDS, PICTURES, NUMBERS ( MOST IMPORTANTLY IS GONE)
PICTURES I GOT BACK UP, PASSWORDS NO BACK UP ( SO SCREWED).

NUMBERS!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL THE NEW FRIENDS I MET!
I LOST ALL UR NUMBERS... DON'T GET ANGRY WHEN I ASK YOU WHO ARE YOU WHEN I GET MY NEW PHONE.. ( PROBABLY A SAME ONE AS E OLD ONE , CAUSE ITS CHEAPER NOW)
SIGH.
I'M SUPER SAD. I JUST DEVELOPED FEELINGS TO MY PHONE FOR ALMOST 8 MTHS ~

TO ALL MY FRIENDS!
if u still wanna remain in contact w me, i mean MUST REMAIN in CONTACT!
GIVE ME ur number either in person when i see you or ONLINE !
LOVE U PEEPS.

I'M STILL SAD.
I HATE BEING ABSENT MINDED
I HATE TAKING MANY THINGS , TENDENCY OF DROPPING OR LOSING THINGS FOR ME IS SUPER HIGH.
HAIZ

I'LL STILL BE USING THE SAME NUMBER.. PEEPS.. CONTACT ME AFTER 3PM TOMORROW.

ALRIGHTS.
NIGHTNIGHT!

2009-04-23T10:41:00.000-07:00

hahha. its hard to smile man!

without braces

but i still gotta put on my retainers............

wait wait .......sigh

hmm.

movie outing w class today..

things didn't turn out as good as we tot.

Movie sucked, cos the stupid movie plot was bad?

many refused to go at e start... but still 12 turned up~

=) thanks and many apologies..

we will think of smth more fun next time..

still wanna thank all for coming..

2009-04-21T12:25:00.000-07:00

nasri is e girl, i'm e man! i was trying hard not to laugh
AWESOME MOTO PEEPS =)
smile
SOUR FACE
i call this inedible food.

MARCUS is funny!!
CUTE TIFFO
WILBERT car at e prata shop. sumo joke LOL.
botak jones
MOTO PEEPS

wanyi nana
wanyi nana again hee
my three new friends? HAHAHA
smile~
yelun! congrats =)
ah toon ah toon ah toon!
my class? not full class.
but quite cool peeps.
hope more bonding yea!

2009-04-21T12:17:00.000-07:00

smiles we used to have !
but u must continue to smile ~

hope we'll be good frens from now on!
=D

2009-04-21T08:29:00.000-07:00

Everything started simple and sweet.
Things happened too fast, until i don't trust this feeling i have.
I don't wanna rush into a rs again.
I fear , i'm tired of heartaches.
I'm tired of promises.
You're almost everything i wanted. You've been e sweetest guy i ever met.
We really have many things in common and we're v similiar~
I know i shouldn't let my past affect us.
But i just don't know why things ain't gg e way i thought it would be.
You never once complained.
I know you are serious.
I do feel smth for you, but.. i don't know why e feeling jus ain't right yet.
I know i'm hurting you..
I'm sorry w my words.. felt very guilty when you sighed, felt guilty when i know you were v upset.

I'm not ready for it yet.
If you find someone better along e route..
u shld move on..
But, don't lose confidence in yourself. you're a v gd bf !

I don't know how long it will take.
But. I need time to recover my old wounds.
I'm short tempered and have extreme mood swings, u're e first who always smiled at me and pampered me.

I felt useless.
This isn't me.I don't treat someone i like this way.
But i don't try things which has no gurantee.
You deserve better!
I'm not trying to tell u to give up. But we need to take things slow ya.

sigh.
thanks for all e smiles and happy moments.
Glad tt i met you, but i don't want you to be upset anymore alrights.
I'll still be here for you.
But.. i think for now, we just go do what we're supposed to yea.
Jiayou for ur exam & performance.

2009-04-19T11:04:00.000-07:00

Hoho.
Sorry to those whom i've disappointed.
I didn't give in my best, i was rushing to finish e song.
I just don't know why i just can't get tt confidence on stage.

hate it when i don't have confidence in myself.
But glad that it's over.
I can move on and concentrate on other stuffs.
Congrats to those who proceeded ! =D

school is gonna start..
i'm still so not prepared. In my own world. LALALA.

think this will make me even less confident now.
sigh.

i'm fine.
just need a lil short break.

PICSS WILL BE UPLOADED SOOOON.
TIRED.
LAZY!
HAHA

2009-04-05T12:39:00.000-07:00

hahahaha.
i know this is super random and funny.

but i think zai leh~
zijie is still into jay. Bro you're missed la! HAHAHA

since my frens like u all~
i shall put more~

2009-04-02T08:18:00.000-07:00

alfi and rohi put this as dp on my phone. and its still my dp!lol.......... alfi is jus so funny =)
Group photo
Sorry everyone for e horrible supper.
no ingredients for e night... and when everyone is hungry e food had gone cold and soggy.
Sorrry for being a poor host. =(
Jael looks retarded here HAHAHAHA
didi also.
mj~
ppl who stayed
cheers to nelson~
tired look
singing...
shawn helping chen chen remove nail polish HAHAHA
us again
team 1. lol.
my BA senior who is younger than me. SOBS.
me n rohi
me and jon soon
ghost hand. dunno whose hand is tt lol. ADIN NELSON LEE SHENG
=)
takopachi~
CUTE TIFFANY AND I . LOVE HER TO BITS!
me n bday boy nelson
Agnes and i ~ BA~
Me n my pretty junior.. okay now no longer junior alr. hahaha
RENEE~~
me n renee again ( its surprising how we used to say we wanna graduate and go e same sch tgt. Love you)

Sportsclub people are really really a fun bunch of people to hang up w.
once again HAPPY birthday NELSON.

its been a real tiring day for me.
hope you guys enjoyed ur stay.
sorry i couldn't send all of you out, i was really tired...

anyway.. met many new people
many smiles.
yet many frowns either.

guess i'm abit too conservative?
hahaa.

2009-03-31T05:47:00.000-07:00

i shall wait till other pictures are all uploaded then i post em all up~
hmm.. all of us!

at e start i had doubts gg to e camp, cause besides running and swimming. I'm not a very sport person. Even my friends doubted i can survive in camp.LOL..
haha..

Except for e first day , all e icebreaking games.
The camp was really fun.
I did all e craziest things in camp i guess, i would never have e guts to do such crazy things outside.
I think i really just gave it all out, since all of us were having fun.

whats most worthwhile is.

the people i've met.
i'm gonna ignore those *****s.. and people who made me felt kinda upset.
I met people who are really sweet.
They are e moto peeps.
Tiffany, claudia, minshan, peiyun, nasri, andreas, joshua, firdaus, gerann ,jazreel.
oh ya and jael.
We're all from diff schs and totally have no link~
but somehow we bonded. haha.... I JUST LOVE ALL OF YOU!
i need to thank my partner e best!
THANKS NASRI , for taking care of me for all e scary places we went and even in cinema HAHA.
I NEED TO ADD ONE MORE PERSON IN THE LIST.
HAHA
I LOVE ALFI TOO.
ALFI DON'T SAD =)

uh... i shall update more events later on.

oh ya let me whine a little bit,
I fell countless of times at kovan badminton court.
why use badminton court for dance, worse still apply something to smoothen e floor.
Can't even run!

bruises all over.
wonder how i go dance this friday.
sigh

2009-03-23T01:49:00.000-07:00

My first time helping out at Singout last night. Luckily my job was easy. =)
I stood there opening n closing doors saying congratulations to all e ppl who made their way to quarter finals.
I listened carefully to everyone who came for audition ytd.
wow i think e one who scored full marks was incredible ..
Nice groove yo~ he sang Neyo- sick and chrisbrown -withyou.

many ppl who joined this com came w experience.
then i look back at myself.
uh..
=(

scared. stress.
oh wells. i'll jus take it as an experience.
muaha.

2009-03-21T10:28:00.000-07:00

Are U Joining SINGOUT '09?

Stop Procrastinating!

NOW IS THE TIME.

Sing Out is an annual singing competition organised by Music Story by Anthony Png.

This year's Sing Out '09 targets at both the

ADULT Category and OPEN Category,

the search for the BEST VOCALIST and PERFORMER in Singapore.

All FINALISTS will have the opportunity to be COACHED PERSONALLY

by Project Superstar Judge Anthony Png (Fang Zhong Hua)

Singout 08 Finalists

This year, all Finalists will get to RECORD A SONG for Sing Out '09 Compilation Disc.

Last year's Grand Finals was held at DBS Auditorium with a total of

more than 20 performers from Music Story, 16 Finalists and 500 Audience.

This year's Grand Finals will be organised at a much larger scale

and we currently already have cash and prizes totaling up to $5000!

We have 2 Categories:

ADULT - 13 -39 years old

OPEN - 40 & above

PRIZES for both Adult & Open Category

1st - $2000 cash & prizes

2nd- $1500 cash & prizes

3rd - $1000 cash & prizes

AUDITION dates:

MARCH 14, 15, 20, 22, 28

APRIL 3 & 4

Venue : MUSIC STORY

QUARTER final dates:

April weekends

Venue : MUSIC STORY

SEMI final dates:

Jun weekends

FINAL date:

August

Requirements:

Prepare 2 songs mainly 1 Fast /1 Slow Song.

You do not have to bring a MMO.

(Will be singing without music)

Time: 7pm
Cost: $15 ( MS student) / $18 ( Public )
Venue : MUSIC STORY

The 1st SINGOUT AUDITION starts on 14 MARCH !!!

HOW TO REGISTER ?

1) Download the REGISTRATION FORM from http://www.musicstory.com.sg/
2) Print & Fill up the form

3) Dial 6223 0012 to confirm your audition dates BEFORE 14 MARCH.
4) Make payments together with the form to Music story on your audition dates

Hotline for enquires: 6223 0012, 11am -7pm

2009-03-20T12:09:00.000-07:00

omg.
wa today's dance is power la.Must reverse e whole choroegraphy in 2 mins?!
wow....
its been some time since i went for dance..
tried out at osch.
wa... ouch ouch ouch. mtv-streetjazz~ streches.
OUCH~! old bones now.
damn!

i miss chionging lessons at wu.. i miss trinity's reggae class.

darn. i wanna get better at dance la.
wth..
im LAZY.
i can't perfect anything.

i wanna focus on singing and dance.....

sorry zihan.. had to wait for my fren so nv go practise haha.
sleep w my guitar for e day ba!
haha.

argh..
needa improve on singing too! argh..... no time to practise. camp. test. lessons. ARGHHHHHHH

2009-03-19T11:40:00.000-07:00

xiaobai!

thanks quak zihan!
haha for practising w me guitar today~.
thanks for guiding me too. =)

2009-03-18T08:36:00.000-07:00

isaac & me.

went to watch slumdog millionaire with isaac..
GOODNESSS... SO TOUCHING~ SO SAD~ SO SWEET ~ SO POOR THING!
E KIDS CAN ACT SUPPPPERRR WELL.
saw how the cruel assholes made a innocent boy with nice bright eyes and sang well and made (him blind to be able to beg for money.
althou.. when it comes to desperate means ... BUT STILL THESE ASSHOLES WHO CHOP LIMBS AND DIG EYEBALLS OF KIDS AND PPL...to make them beg for money or monetary means!( like duh im not referring to doctors) TO HELL W U. ur next life shall be given e same treatment!
OMG.
haha =)

muahaha.... another childhood fren~
13 yrs of frenship~ wee!

jiayou in sajc~ e jc i wanted to go =(
aww.
anw its nice gg out w u always.

then we cabbed home...

uh..tiring day.. MORE TIRING DAYS TO COME.

when i'm too free. i complain i wanna be occupied.
when im occupied.
i wanna be free.
humans are just contradicting.
just like me.
DARN!!
i got myself sooooo OCCUPIED!!!! sigh

2009-03-16T11:53:00.000-07:00

GUANG e bday boy man ahpek haha
GUANG n i
WANYI n sherman
nana xh
me and nana
JO!!

belated bday celebration for guanghao!
Woot 22 le ~

two laptops and a plastic bag filled w gifts~
poor gh.
GUANGHAO YOU'RE E BEST!
HAHA.
BEST BROTHER SISTER BUDDY FREN BOYFRIEND NANNY~
haha

learn from him guys~ haha
heee is e besttt!
HAHA....
gman u rock~!

my buddy JEREMYKWANJINGHAN
IS missing in action for permanent alr.
his gf..
lol.. nothing to say.

buddy... gt gf jiu like tt liao lor!!
=(
its ok.

hmm..
suddenly i tot of these things.
haha..

Sweet talks. sick of it already. seen thru it.been thru it. had enuff of it!!
since all e endings is e same.
one word.
jerk.
HAHAHA.

i don't wanna think anything abt love yea.
so don't ask me.
i'm really fine alone.
dun intro me peeps.
haha.

oh ya .. COMING SOON ( thai horror movie) is nice
SCARY too..

u shld see how i grabbed guanghao and lena's hand.
LOL..

but its nice watching e movie all of us tgt.
tho.
things ain't the same.
but still e feeling was
great.

2009-03-15T10:04:00.000-07:00

Went to ms today so happening.
sudden changes.
ohwells.

nvm. ok i suck at guitar like seriously..
haha..
Damnnnnn.. i guesss im really taking too many things at the same time..
cnt juggle w it!
nvm. i shall practise..sigh..

went out with evelyn, jon and eve fren neo.
played left 4 dead. fun..
hahaha.
i like killing zombies..
but all thanks to jon and neo for protecting us throughout e game.
Lol..
then we went to eat and slack.
super funny conver we had.
hahaa.

omg..
eve and neo is joining sing out too.
omg.
die le lo.

all e zai ppl ..

sian..

=(

uh and we headed back home..

i wanna watch bai qu nu wang next episode~~ exciting. hahaha

2009-03-12T06:52:00.000-07:00

i

our tour guides

t
r

ghost!!!

SO HARD TO USE. haha
STUPID REMOTE. HAHAHA. ALL CHINESE. CHIM si le!

hair styling time
wa this 8 joined rainbow lookalikes .. DAMN TIRING AR.hahaha. pebbleeeee beaccch.

uhhh.

yuan zhu ming... all gd looking wor. but damn young.
went and sang k~~
cuteee toys!
papa smoking again..

weee rose spa.. nice.. for e cold weather. Sian... SUPER COLD!! haha.

getting ready for spa...
Uh bullied.

big yakult n pudding~ random.. but i love it.haha

super pretttttttyyyy taiwan salesgirl~

Muachiiii

having our lunch in this cave. forget whats e name.. unique..

like e view~
first hotel

this is damn random lar...
bullet train, mrt.. i seldom take mrt in sing.. see i so guai take mrt at taiwan. hahaha

En & Me.. Early at 3 am.
Taken one day before i left...

HMM.. i love taiwan~ i love e food i love e shoppppinggggggggg..
i love e cold weather...
SUPER COLD!!!
the above small picss here and there shall explain things. hahaha
Hmm..
I LOVE TAIPEI! XIMENDING. WUFENPU. AND I LOVE MIDNIGHT SHOPPING...
I GREW FAT. EAT ALOT !!!!!
hahaha...
i love all e hotels~~ troublesome. changed 6 hotels!!
after all e countries i went. i think i love taiwan most! & europe..
but.. taiwan better... so many taiwan shows.. wanted to catch a movie but too tired..
i LOVE xiao huang e taxi.. althou we are all chinese..
i realised my CHINESE REALLY CUI!!
hahaha... they dunno wats de shi.. must say ji cheng che. or xiaohuang.

minus off e temples part.. all was fun!

ALISHAN IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!
i love e ying hua~

IT KEPT RAINING...
COLD...
everytime aft everyone is back in their rooms.
we'll be busy shopping..

i love GAOXIONG MENG SHI DAI...
e place where huan huan ai ,drama series took place mostly .

the rest shld be continued again. lazy le..

SHOPEATSHOPEAT.
I MISS TAIWAN.
I WANNA GO AGAIN!!

2009-03-04T07:53:00.000-08:00

wanted to upload pics..
but my usb wireeee kenna water.
having headache, flu,fever, cough,sore throat, tooth hurts, period. LOL
WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN NOW?!!!
=(

i'm leaving in 2 hours time.
LOVE & MISS EVERYONE.........

2009-03-01T07:28:00.000-08:00

jo n me at toapayoh seven eleven outside there eatingcupnoodles for supper.. fatteningggg.
yucky! extremely salty and some overcooked!! sad i miss chompchomp carrot cake. shall wait till guang finishes his exam and bring me eat nice carrot cake, sting ray and lala and .. ok i sound greedy.
E girly jo. hahaa.. cos we went to cut and style our hair. I ask her wear girl girl ltr e hairstylist will cut v boy hairstyle for her.
JO , africa ppl no food to eat leh.. keep wasting food!!
she's eating lesser and lesser these days. STUPID JEFF............................ WHY GO SAY SHE fat. tho i know its just joking ma.. sensitive know. haha
ENEN and me. aft wearing e same dress we bought ... i suddenly tot of bridewars e gd sisters. haha

=)

MY MOM attempts to act cute. AIYO!

my messssy room
En and Me. 10 yrs and counting!

2009-02-27T22:16:00.000-08:00

GUANGHAO! SHERMAN ! NANA! WANYI ! JO!!!
LETS MEET UP BEFORE I LEAVE .. THOUGH ITS ONLY 9 DAYS!!
BUT....
LETS MEET UP.
ONE LAST MAHJONG SESSION BEFORE I LEAVE?
OR K SESSION?!
HAHAHA

WEDNESDAY ONWARDS I NOT FREE LE!
TOMORROW NOON, MONDAY NIGHT.TUESDAY NIGHT. WED NIGHT I NOT THAT SURE LEH~

YOU ALL WILL BEEEE MISSSED.
i DOUBT I CAN GET MUCH GIFTS LE.
COS IT WILL BE MOUNTAINS AND GRASS AND NIGHT MARKETS..
I SEE SHOPPING MALL I CHIONG K? LOL!

I ALSO WILL MISS ALL THE OTHER PEEPS!
SO DON'T CALL ME FROM WED MIDNIGHT ONWARDS AR~

2009-02-27T12:03:00.000-08:00

Nah. Wanyi don't say i never put e pics up ar~ u also never post in ur blog la.. Here goes12 pics... random. we can't act cute. HAHA
12!
11
i cannot find 8. so lets assume this pic is like calling out for 8 and 9 . haha

7
six.
five 2
five.. NG 1
huh.. ok.. should be 4
3

two

one

fierce
TCC~

2009-02-24T12:18:00.000-08:00

desmond's mei tui to seduce taxi drivers.
wilfred n quack
guang n me
me n e boss (bday boy)
me melvin qinhui ( long time no see uh!)stupid qh.. u're suppose to protect me from e boss ''whipped cream attack'' i still kena. EVERYONE BIRTHDAY I ALSO KENNA. na li hai you tian li uh!
mun tat. smile until mouth cramp liao.
xh and nana
e bday boy. man. ah pek. boss.
pouting e whole day dunno y. sian sian la.
smile liao lor
the cushion chair at TCC is huge and comfy. wait for buffet dinner until hungry until tired. lie down liao. haha
take a proper pic liao. haha
cushion chair at tcc..

xianghuibday.
had buffet dinner at vienna.
food was okay ba.
not much variety but ingredients are ex lo.

more pics coming up laterrr. add on this post. hahaa

dunno wat to say recently.
k tts abt it for xh bday.

i'm juggling with too many things now.

recently go dance also lazy le.
keep skipping lessons alr.
=(

one more weeek to taiwan~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-02-22T23:10:00.001-08:00

敗犬女王~!

haha. so nice~
fantasies just lasts in dramas~

2009-02-20T21:47:00.000-08:00

played badmintion w darren, chloe,ruirong and guang on wednesday ~
Darren and his stupid face. HAHAHA.
Eric & me
eric & me 2

Uh.. went k with eric , supposingly w alton too but he give me aeroplane=(
haha.. oh wells he had dinner w parents... altoon lucky nv meet u only else i alone sia.

had kbuffet .. sang three hours..
hmm.. dunno whats wrong w my voice . shittt.. haha
i think eric's yao zi improved alot tho.. compared to like yrs back ..
jiayou in pursuing ur dreams~
sorry i left early tho.
Was pretty tired.. i was dozing off during lessons alr.

uh.
took the wrong train.. and lost my file!!
guess to tired alr.. see a train and jus walk into it. damn.
my music notes................................
argh.

Super sad. when can i not be soooo clumsy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-19T08:49:00.000-08:00

went to watch HE'S JUST NOT SO INTO YOU
ahh. i would say i love it.
HAHA.

super true man~
I want a male love consultant.
Love it when ''alex'' says it means run & he's not interested.
haha. so true.
when a guy dun return calls.
no more assuming and guessing now.

he's just so not into you. yea. okay ..

FUNNY~ SAD ~ SWEET too.

the scene btwn e sexy hot girl , the guy and his wife is damn funny.
muahaha. Jo and i was guessing guessing guessing. for all e scenes.. but not as crazy as what we've tot so.

jennifer aniston & dunno which guy inside.. uh.. unexpected & sweet~!
one out of a million cases.
but everything is worth it when it happens.

so now. i shall no longer be deceived by Sweet talk.
i must be more firm and not let my feelingss be controlled by anyone so easily.
hahaha.

good things r worth the wait.
unreadiness lead to broken rs.

yeah.

so i'll jus happily wait for mine then~
if it comes tho. HAHA

2009-02-18T11:47:00.000-08:00

quaccckk.... and me

haha.GUANGhao. my parttime bf. sister. mother. brother. father. haha.. he rocks
lionel nana me

sukisushi. i still prefer sakae.
wanyi n pang pang. hahaha...... sweet hor
im advertising miso soup. Rainer spoils e pic again. hahaha
wanyi n rainer.
guang n wanyi
wanyi n i
me wanyi nana
70% strong. haha special bday gift by e boss. wanyi seh aft that. HAHAHA
rainer and nana.
haha.they r close~
singing again~
er. posers. HAHAHAHA
singing~ at dream factor.
can we keep smiling like this? sigh. what happen to us.
everyone on wanyi's bday~
Seh ppl~
wanyi and dream factor boss. the boss is damn nice!!

these are pictures taken on wanyi's bday celebration.
happy and sad.
dun wanna mention details.
EAT ATE EATEN.
SING SANG SUNG.
DRINK DRANK DRUNK.
went home.

i was busy singing.
all e emo songs.
haha.

=)
quack's 20!!
:D